ENTRY 011: FUFU

Since the last newsletter, I’ve been in my head a lot.

Not in the fun way of thinking of jokes to tell on the internet. More so ruminating over past friend rejections and all the false starts in my career.

The impact those moments had on my sense of self is unshakeable sometimes. I can remember being so distraught about it all that I believed that if I found a way to get ahead of whatever was “wrong with me,” then maybe I’d deal with less rejection and career drama. So, I became whoever was necessary, hiding my true self for the sake of connection and stability. It was a miserable cycle of self sabotage.

But, that was then.

Now, when I get out of my feelings and into my bag, what I have to say to the people in a lot of these situations is…